Listen to a recording of one’s voice is often upsetting. Discovering, not only that we do not recognise it as our own – too shrill, high or raspy – but also that the tone we use reveals distressing personality traits, can generate reasonable doubts about how we are being perceived by others.
We are used to hearing our voice from within, to observing our actions based on the utility that we assign them, or the desire for results, but the effectiveness of our actions, and our words, can also be considered as such, not depending on our desire as much as their real impact on the world. To put it another way, the reality of who we are, our true self, is not on this side of the playing field. Our true self plays on the other side of the field.
The Somatic observation of our way of being, the reading of the actions that we take: our decisions’ degree of anticipation or procrastination, the position of our shoulders following a refusal, the openness with which we are ready to receive a suggestion for improvement, to cite some examples, are episodes of a Somatic narrative that always precedes us.
An embodied account that constitutes our way of being, our visible soul. A pattern that we have built, action after action, throughout our lives, but that goes back to the life experiences of our ancestors, adding the somatic legacy of our entire lineage to ours. An embodied history revealing the result of all these life experiences and that is detectable not only in the way we speak, not only in our language, but also in our physical postures, our gestures, and the way we overcome or collapse in response to certain challenges.
The way we bend our back slightly and lower our chin, leading us to ask for forgiveness, even when we have not done anything wrong or caused offence, is something that we cannot seem to avoid, conveying our resignation and influencing the quality of our actions. The way we raise our eyebrows and stiffen up, avoiding contact with others’ emotions, as if we fear losing our arguments if we consider those of our opponent, makes us look fragile and weakens our capacity to influence, although at certain times it allows us to impose our ideas.
The acceleration of our pulse, the concentration of blood in the upper part of the body, especially the chest and head, while talking, as we forget to keep our feet on the floor, forget our legs and hips when passionately defending a position, takes us away from reality and makes us the first victim of our manipulations. Each of these physical responses are parts of our way of being, what in terms of Somatic evaluation we understand as our Soma.
Cultivating our Soma becomes a necessity when we want to transform our way of being. To achieve this, the Somatic School is dedicated to training one in that inner journey that takes us back to the playing field, back to inhabiting our form.